In the last episode, Jack met with A2 and predicts himself to fall in love with her sooner or later. Has he...?
I can't take my eyes off of her. My mind is so fixated on her currently. I feel like hanging out with her all the time. I know that I will fall for A2, but not this fast. It escalated to another level in a matter of 2 months. The problem with fast escalation is that it will always never be mutual. Never.
As I said before, I was attracted to A2 the first moment I met her. It wasn't love at first sight, more like attraction at first sight. She exuberates a certain quality that I am looking for. It's complicated to describe, she's warm and motherly,easygoing and outgoing, something along those lines. It's just that, everytime I hear her voice, I'll be in a state of euphoric , and the saddest thing in this happiness is that I can't tell why. And to add, she smells nice as well. Spending time with her has made my feelings for her escalated.
I can't see her with other guys, I will be very jealous. I know, I am not supposed to feel this way, but I felt it. And hanging out in a group is killing me on the inside. In fact, hanging out with her alone is also becoming a bad idea as I might expose the fact that I've fallen for her, almost on the verge of falling in love. And not hanging out with her is destroying me. I am stuck in between. It is so tempting because I see her everyday.
It feels like there are 2 of me:one ask me to go after her and devise a 6 months contigency plan and the other one just ask me to go with the flow, to strike when there is an opportunity. Honestly, from a logical point of view, going after her now would elliminate future candidates for me as she is a social hub to me. On the other hand, I like her a lot and it is hard to contain it any further.
So, what will it be Jack? Sometimes, I ask myself, who is the real monster that I am trying to suppress here, myself or the monster within? Why do I seek the happiness that has abandoned me? Do I need to pull of an M with A2? Honestly, I don't know the answers. But I kind of sense, that I will get hurt at the end of the day. And everyone knows, I love to hurt myself. Besides, if it is meant to be, then she is not going anywhere.